And my God will
meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ
Jesus.
Philippians
4:19
Last February, after obeying the leading of the Lord to resign from my job as a physiotherapist and to take a step out into missions work, I had no idea how I was going to support myself financially. If I looked at the circumstances, it would have seemed like such a foolish decision at the time. However, I've experienced God's faithfulness many times before and I knew that He would work things out in a way that only God can. God is Jehovah Jireh, He is my Provider. I know that as I follow His calling for my life He will always provide for my every need.
Looking back over the past year and a half, I continue to be amazed at just how awesome God is. He has, indeed, provided for me this whole entire journey. Even before I left Canada, God already had all of my financial support lined up for my time in Taiwan. As a brand new missionary, it was confirmation that I was doing the right thing and that this was His will for my life. It was also confirmation that He would always provide for whatever asked me to do and that all I needed to do was to step out and obey His calling.
Not only has the Lord provided all of the finances I need but He has also provided many other important things. He has grounded me in a great organization at Ray of Hope, and at Dayspring Church, which have both become my family in Taiwan. He has brought friends into my life whom I can share and confide in. He has brought people to help me when I have practical needs such as how to get a cell phone, how to get scooter insurance, where to get my computer fixed, or how to make an appointment to see a doctor. He has brought people in my life to take me places to have fun - out for dinner or ice cream, to watch a movie, to the beach, to play soccer, to go camping, hiking, on a bike ride, or even to travel to other places in Taiwan.
Beyond relationships, God has also provided answers to my prayers, no matter how small or big. He has provided comfort when I've been homesick or discouraged and peace amidst the storms. Through His wisdom He has provided me with answers to solutions that seemed too big for me to solve. And because He's God, He continues to provide me with many opportunities in Taiwan to grow as person and to be more like Christ - whether it's learning Chinese, learning from my mistakes, or learning to love. Jesus truly has been my Rock and my Refuge, my very present help in time of need.
Recently, I was blessed again by God's continual provision, through an unexpected way...
Every year, my school awards five scholarships to students learning Chinese, one scholarship for every two levels (there are 10 levels altogether). The scholarships are given based on teacher recommendations as well as the student's performance on a written and oral test. This semester I studied really hard and managed to complete level B and most of level C instead of only level B like all of my other classmates. So I thought that I would stand a good chance at winning the level A/B scholarship. However, when I submitted my application the office informed me that I was not allowed to write the level A/B test but I had to write the level C/D test.
At first I was a little upset because I didn't think it was very fair. Even though I had only studied for 6 months I had to compete with students who had already studied for 9 or 12 months and were 1 or 2 books ahead of me. It felt like I was being penalized for studying hard! After I thought about it, I figured there would be no way that I could study enough to compete with the higher level students and so I was going to retract my application. I thought I might as well enjoy my vacation days instead of spending them studying for a scholarship that I had no chance of winning.
As I prayed about the scholarship though, God spoke to me. He told me that I should go through with the application, to study what I know, and to do the test for fun. Oh, and He also told me to have a good attitude about it too. God is so funny, only He can get away with thinking that cramming for an exam for 3 days would be fun :)
So I did what He asked, I worked hard and studied everything that I possibly could. During that time I really felt the peace of God. However, I spent all that effort only to find out that the test was quite hard. But instead of getting frustrated or discouraged I remembered what God told me and answered every question the best that I could and tried to have fun. After I finished the test I really thought that I wasn't going to win the scholarship and that through this experience God was just showing me how to go through difficult situations with a positive attitude.
By the time the results were announced I had already put the test behind me and had long forgotten about it so I didn't even check to see who had won. To my surprise my teacher came up to me and told me that I won the level C/D scholarship! I almost couldn't believe it but then I realized that's just how God works! You see, initially I figured I could win the scholarship just by relying on my own natural abilities and hard work and could have been prideful about it. But when the circumstances changed and I was suddenly faced with a seemingly impossible situation, I no longer could rely solely on my own abilities. Instead I could only lean on, trust in, and have confidence in God to work out the situation for the best. And He never disappoints - time and time again He always shows His goodness and faithfulness to us!
So be encouraged - this is what our life with God is all about. Even though sometimes things don't make sense or you don't always understand, put your faith in the Lord. He has ways of providing for our every need in ways that we never could think up ourselves. God's way is always the best way and in His way all of the honor, glory, and praise goes to Him!